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Tuesday, 05 June 2007

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ALANIS MORISETTE lyrics

Friday, 01 June 2007

the grass always seems to be greeener on the other side

Ever get the feeling that someone else's life is better than your own. When you reflect back on your own life you seem to think that it sucks and that you wish that you had someone else's life. Or that their life seems to be so easy for others. Or that things comes easier for others than it does for yourself. That is exactly how I feel at the present.

I feel that there is something wrong with me and how is that most things in my life doesn't work out the way that I thought that it would. I have come quarter (yes i'm slowly admitting that i'm getting older. )way through my life and yet I feel that I have not accomplish anything significant. If I were to disappear at this point in time I feel that my presence would not be missed. At times I feel so worthless that I'm not adding a presence to the people around me. My lack of self worth comes from many sources and disappointments that life has brought.

When I look at the life of other around me it seems to come so easily to them. Things just seems to happen for them. But then again things just seem to be greener on the other side doesn't never truely knowing what the other person is going through. Yet we still think that they have it better.

Through all these mixed emotions I am learning a life long lesson, which is to trust Him wholeheartedly. Trusting the Lord wholeheartedly without doubting. Easy thing to say but so difficult to do. I guess this is my lifelong lesson. Letting go and letting God take over. Such a scary thought not to be in control. But knowing that He will always have only the best for me. How can you wrap your mind around this. That God above is watching you can leading you, if only you take the time to listen.

Yet through all these mixed up thoughts and emotions I'm reminded time and time again that His grace is sufficient for me.

Romans 5 vs 1-5
¹Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, ²through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. ³Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; ⁴perseverance, character; and character, hope. ⁵And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

Tuesday, 22 May 2007

filling up on my boredom.

Your Brain is Purple

Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic.
You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense.
Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries.

You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

What Color Is Your Brain?

hahaha. the result is pretty funny. though not entirely?accurate

Your Love Is Represented By a Red Rose

You love passionately and fully, without any reservations.
And while romantic love comes easily for you, you also love many people platonically.
You are a true romantic, and you always can see the best in people.

What Rose Represents Your Love?